I wish I had a friend
I wish I had a friend in you
I wish I had my dreams
I wish I had my dreams with you
But my wishing is too simple
And my desires are too kind
The world casts stones into my brittle
Delicately-natured hide
I wish I had a friend in you
I wish I had a dream
I wish there was a man in you
I wish I could believe
I wish it was so easy for me
I wish I had no memory
I wish that wishes made a difference
But Fate won’t let that be
I wish I had a love
I wish I had a love in you
I wish I had no tears
I wish I had no tears for you
But my wishing is too perfect
And my sorrow is too true
The days I live or I have left
Are in reflection of me and you
I wish I had a friend in you
I wish I had a dream
I wish there was a man in you
I wish I could believe
I wish it was so easy for me
I wish I had no memory
I wish that wishes made a difference
But Fate won’t let that be
I wish I had a coin
I wish I had a coin for you
I wish I had a well
I wish I had a well for you
But no well will take me
And no magic will appear
The power is gone, you see
You will never find it here
I wish I had a friend in you
I wish I had a dream
I wish there was a man in you
I wish I could believe
I wish it was so easy for me
I wish I had no memory
I wish that wishes made a difference
But Fate won’t let that be
But Fate won’t let that be
I’m sick of making promises I don’t intend to keep
Seeing the pearly gates when I’m swimming in the deep
Hand caught in the rope that I hang myself with
Feet stuck in the muck too heavy to lift
And I got to thinking as I watched myself drown
What use is giving in when you want to get out
You cut off my wings, but I’ll find a way to fly
My tears were the rain that made up my life
I’m done with oceans and I’m done with clouds
I’m done with lies and I’m done with doubt
If I can’t have heaven after going through hell
Then I’m going to take a plane, and fly there myself
I’m tired of hearing excuses I don’t even believe
Seeing the bright sun when I’ve gone blind trying to see
Your heart caught in red tape that I can’t cut down
This love starved to death on the couch
And I got to thinking as I watched it all burn
What use is teaching a lesson that you’ll never learn
You cut off my wings, but I’ll find a way to fly
My tears were the rain that made up my life
I’m done with oceans and I’m done with clouds
I’m done with the lies and I’m done with doubt
If I can’t have heaven after going through hell
Then I’m going to take a plane, and fly there myself
I waited for angels, made friends with demons
Gave over to the hope that you’d see me leaving
And wake up from your fever dream
From this height I just can’t believe
I stayed so long praying on my knees
When I had already been given all that I need
You cut off my wings, but I’ll find a way to fly
My tears were the rain that made up my life
But I’m done with oceans and I’m done with clouds
I’m done with all the lies and all of that doubt
If I can’t have heaven after going through hell
Then I’m going to take a plane, and fly there myself
If I can’t have heaven after going through hell
Then I’m going to take a plane, and fly there myself
I sink everyday
into the oceans of things I never got around to saying
And I think everyday
that maybe this is the time I just quit playing the game
But I drink to your health
Cause God knows what being without it would make you do to yourself
And it’s so neat
How nothing I’ve said recently has meant a single thing to you
Why do I keep coming back to
Find you driftwood for the fire
That keeps you warm and in comfort
Even though my every desire
Tells me to leave you dead and broken
But I keep going around your house at night
Peeking in the windows for a light
That tells me you haven’t frozen to death
Here’s another drink to your health
I dance everyday
on the corpses of my dreams that I let you take away
And I can’t in any way
believe I sat around cleaning up every little mess you’ve made
But I drink to your health
Cause God knows what being without it would make you do to yourself
And there’s no chance
Of me ever having a normal life when I meant nothing to you
So I’m stuck coming right back to
Find you driftwood for the fire
That keeps you warm and in comfort
Even though my every desire
Tells me to leave you dead and broken
But I keep going around your house at night
Peeking in the windows for a light
That tells me you haven’t frozen to death
Here’s another drink to your health
I’m drunk every day
on the words coming out of my mouth when I say
I think in every way
that I’m done being your mother and that something has to change
But my glass, it’s empty
Cause God is tired of hearing me crying about you and worried what it does to me
But there’s no lining
in the silver cloud of revelation that I’ve finally mentioned
So please stop your whining
Find your own driftwood for a fire
That keeps you warm and in comfort
Even though your every desire
Tells you that you’re dead and broken
And don’t keep coming around my house at night
Peeking in the windows for the morning light
Cause I’ve let my love for you freeze to death
So here’s another drink to my health
I once heard a lullaby
that used to help me sleep at night
When the monsters would come alive
I once heard a lullaby
that used to make me weep at night
When the monsters became lies
And I heard through the grapevine
That all those nights were real
And I saw one day in an old friend of mine
That the scary monsters feel
And I feel bad that I was scared of something
That was so scared of itself
I once heard a lullaby
that used to make me run to the closet
When the monsters would come to life
I once heard a lullaby
that used to make me sad to be in the closet
When the monsters were on the outside
And I heard through the grapevine
That all those nights were real
And I saw one day in an old friend of mine
That the scary monsters feel
And I feel bad that I was scared of something
That was so scared of itself
When I was child I was told
Not to talk to strangers
And that when I got older
I’d be able to fight the danger
But how was I supposed to know
Who I really didn’t know
When I could look at your face
And see nothing out of place
Don’t talk to strangers
You said, don’t talk to strangers
But you’re a stranger
Am I in danger?
I once heard a lullaby
that used to make me scream at night
When the monsters were inside
And I once heard a lie
that used to make me dream at night
When the monsters were alive
And I heard through the grapevine
That all those nights were real
And I saw one day in a reflection of mine
That the scary monsters feel
And I feel bad that I was scared of something
That was so scared of itself
It told children stories about what was waiting,
In the dark of their rooms in the night
The tales were always self-deprecating
As they reached over to turn out the light
Hey, Devil, can you hear me?
It’s raining here and I’m all alone
Now I know you must be busy
But I’ve never liked empty homes
I’ve called up to heaven
And I’ve begged pretty please
But it started to set in
That God’s not the only one to answer those on their knees
Hey, Devil, can you hear me?
I’m cold inside and I cannot stay awake
Now I know you that you know me
As that one that won’t go away
I’ve yelled up at the thundering sky
And I’ve been painting these walls
But I’ve lost all track of time
I’m getting real tired of this endless, hopeful call
Hey, Devil, can you hear me?
I’m listening to the thunder but it’s gone inside
Now I know you must be tired of me
Crying to you all of the time
I’ve hurt myself here on this floor
So I’m asking you nicely
Won’t you come right now to my door
And find a way to fix a dying poor little, selfish me
Hey, Devil, can you hear me?
It’s quiet everywhere and I’m still alone
Now I know you must be laughing
‘Cause I can hear the telephone
I’m trying to pick it up, but I can’t move
And it’s colder now than it was before
But you won’t tell me what to do
Now I wish that the rain was pouring
Hey, God, can you hear me?
I went too far and I feel alone
Now I know you must be busy
‘Cause you never picked up the phone
I’ve been crying on the inside for an eternity
And I’ve prayed all my life away
But I just didn’t know I had it in me
I guess you’re both just a little busy today
There is something to be said about
Falling without plotting the course
There is something to be said for
Riding the race without a good horse
And you look offended by my terminology
Pouting and frowning so sweetly at me
Hey, why don’t you marry me
We could live our lives out in…
I live in this sham of bliss
Wishing for your warmth
It’s freezing where you don’t shine
I wonder what I’m living for
Is it right to be so lost to someone
You can’t see a day without their
Idiosyncrasies
They pierce into the defenses and spare
No one, no one
I see colors…
It took me all night, in fact
To work up the nerve
So cut me some slack
You know I deserve
At least, a kiss
At most, a key
I shouldn’t want this
But you’ve made me
Indecisive
Corrupting minx
I’d give
Just about one more drink
To corrupt you
Indecisive
I just might…
It’s believed good men are remorseful
It’s believed the regret makes you greater
But I’ve seen a whole army of delightful
Killers in the ranks of saviors
We don’t even notice misconceptions
because they seem too factual
We don’t even whisper deceptions
because the masses are so…
